Hi, I am Adhil. Here’s my story of Survival.
Survivor Series: Adhil Hameed
An elder son from a middle-class family with my father working abroad, we had our struggles but always managed to make both ends meet. Having given all the love and care in the world, just like most of the middle-class kids, getting successful and reaching heights became my life goal. I made sure that I stayed well above average in all my exams and took an extra year to get into a prestigious institution, NIT Calicut. College was a beautiful phase but the four years and the degree did not get me a placement.
Being someone who was constantly at siege with expectations, I started getting anxious and overthinking and insomnia became my constant companions. Finding my first job at Bangalore with a paycheck of 16k, I had to take tuitions after my 9 hour shift while hustling through the Bangalore traffic. I used to compare my life with many of my batch mates who had well-paying jobs and blamed myself for letting all of this happen, for being the useless six-pointer I thought I was. I was going through all this while trying to move on and at a time when I did not know how serious of an issue depression and overthinking was. In fact, I did not even realize that it was depression that struck me when I was in my fourth year of college handling a breakup and struggling to get a job!
Survivor Series: Adhil Hameed
Now, four years, two different jobs and two heartbreaks later, I am at a happy place here. There were times when even my close friends and family did not understand what I was going through, but I had them by my side lending me an ear and letting me understand that it’s important to seek professional help. I still tip over at the thought of my ex-lover and get anxious thinking about my career. But then, I realize, just like everything that has happened, my timeline and yours will be different. And I now believe that it’s ok to be wrong, to have made mistakes, to be flawed but what matters is to love myself as who I am. What I have become is a culmination of everything that I have gone through, it has shaped me and gave me depth. I’m all those right and wrong choices that I took. I’m still at war with this world that fights me, but given a choice, I will choose my life over and over again, every single time.
— Adhil Hameed
Adhil – Survivor
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