I am a highly ambitious woman. I work as a Project Manager in an MNC in Bangalore. Here’s my story of Survival.
It was the conflicts in my thoughts against that of the society I live, that made me disturbed from childhood. It eventually led me to suppress my true self by the age of 19 and to live as a socially acceptable girl / woman. As time passed life changed… the suppression turned to lack of self-esteem and depression. Suicidal thoughts were always a visitor during my bouts of depression. When days and nights are restless with negative thoughts, thoughts of suicide appeared to be an escape route. Those days were about thinking, thinking and more thinking without sleep or appetite. It was more of a quiet and silent phase and hence most people fail to notice it.
It took some time to realise that I’m experiencing depression, and it’s a mental illness. I was lucky enough to have good friends who made me understand what I am going through and the importance of seeking help. I did not know what it meant to be mentally sound and what it meant to be not. I sought clinical as well as counseling support to come out of that phase.
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A conflict or unpleasant conversation can trigger my depression and suicidal thoughts back anytime, but now I know how to handle it in an effective way. I have overcome something hard and painful, that thought itself elated my self-respect and self-love.
From my experience, I think that any change in behaviour or sudden silence or suicidal statements from a friend or a dear one should not be taken lightly. Talk to them; listen to them with a non-judgmental attitude. Encourage them to seek help!
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